Forgiveness

Forgiving yourself is life's greatest challenge.

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Location: Daytona Beach, Florida, United States

Adopted, only child...need I say more? That has a whole set of sterotypes right there!

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Happy New Year

Happy New Year! It has been awhile since I have posted. I guess I just haven’t been in much of a writing mood. Lots to talk about though.

I had to go back a few blogs to see where I left off. I’ve been branching off on several subjects that somewhat keep the focus off kilter, but I’m finding more and more that life in general is a running commentary full of tangent stories and events, but that all stem from one main line.

So here are some updates:
1) Conversations with my birth mother. I finally talked to my birth-mom for over 2 hours one night. That was really nice. It actually sounds like we have a lot in common, especially in the area of natural tendencies. She is also open to finally meeting in person sometime this year. Timing is always important and I think we are both finally feeling like it is a good time. I also found out that there are a lot of perfectionist tendencies as both of my half-sisters have dealt with similar problems as I have.

2) The results of my stomach scan showed that I have a condition called gastroparesis. This condition occurs when the rate of the electrical wave slows and the stomach contracts less frequently. Now the food just lays in the stomach relying on acid and digestive enzymes to break down the food and on gravity to empty the stomach. A known cause is bulimia. It most likely is a permanent condition that I will have to take medicine for the rest of my life. Yea! However, it does explain a lot of symptoms I was having such as severe heartburn that were not helped by normal acid relieving medications. Other than that, I have a few other minor issues but most will take care of themselves over time.

3) I should just have an entry devoted entirely to this, but my first attempt at taking an anti-depressant was HORRIBLE. My doctor prescribed me Zoloft so I went and filled the prescription. That night I decided to take one before bed. I woke up a couple of hours later. My jaw was shaking; I felt agitated and disoriented; and I felt like my skin was going to jump off of the rest of my body. I thought maybe getting up and going to the bathroom would help. When I got up, however, I fell over. I was so dizzy and nauseous. I made it to the bathroom and back to bed but didn’t sleep the rest of the night. I was shaking, restless and just felt completely sick. My mind was racing the entire time. I threw up the next morning from nausea. It took two days to feel normal. So…in other words, I experienced almost every severe reaction listed in the information booklet I received with the drug. I need to call my doctor and talk to her about that. Bad, bad, bad!!!!!!

Well, that’s all for now. I am going crazy trying to learn a new position at work as well as keep up several components of my old position. It is a tough juggling act, but hopefully I get through without dropping too many balls.

Here is to a better year in 2007. God knows I need it!